Extra Whatever-it-is-I-Need

Father God, I ask for extra strength today. After the tough day yesterday, I can't do today without You carrying me through it. I feel exhausted and on the brink of tears. These kids and their dumb decisions are wearing me out mentally. It doesn't help thinking I may lose my best friend and teaching partner of 12 years. Selfish? Yes. I'm just asking for an extra portion of patience and love so that I may be able to hand it out as well as use it for myself. Thank you. InJesus's name I pray. Amen.  

Fear the Boobs

I am sitting here in a waiting room waiting on the dr to look at my mammogram X-ray. Last time I was here they found something that they want to keep an eye on. So, I'm back here 6 months later to see if the little sucker has changed. I had ultra sounds last time and now they want to do that this time too. 

It brings me to a time when my mom had a similar experience. The thing that's different for me is I am alone here and that is just fine. Mom was so scared that Mishelle and I had to take off work and go with her. I remember when they told her it was nothing she broke down crying with relief. I knew she was full of fear at that point. I'm not knocking her for being scared. Cancer can be a scary thing. Especially for Mom. Both her mom and dad died with cancer. I'm just thinking how grateful I am to Holy Spirit that gives me such peace in times like these. 

I have finished my ultra sound and they said the spot hasn't changed any so I am good for another 6 months. Yay and thank you Jesus!