Who Do You Do Life With

I'm felling rather down today. I finished a Bible study on RightNow Media today about living life together. It was a great study of how God wants us to be close with people. I realized I am not close with anyone but Mishelle, my sister, and Kim. I don't do life with anyone. Not even Bobby. He is gone all the time doing his thing and I'm doing mine. Which consists of going home from work and watching tv. By myself. I'm not wanting sympathy, I know it is my fault. When you do life with people you have to be there in good and the bad. I don't think I am mentally stable enough to be there for someone when their life got messy and sad. I'm really not a good friend. I always want close friends to entertain me but don't want the complications that come with deep friendships. I don't know the answer to make me feel better. I just suck at life. 

East Gate Foundation Run

Yesterday I had the oportunity to enter the East Gate Foundation run in Minco. I did the 5K because I haven't been training at all. I wanted to run because it is such a great foundation. Lori and her team do so much for the families with cancer sick members. She is a friend of Heaston Church and there were many Heastonites running. Several for the first time. I am so proud of them for coming out, exercising, and just loving each other through this hard thing. I saw beautiful kids and adults fellowshipping with each other with a comradery that comes only from Christ. I was a tad jealous because it has been a while since I felt that with this church. I don't mean to bring this post down. It is totally my fault that is the case. I don't put myself in there with them. I am so much older than most of these people, I don't fit in with them anymore. Our church is full of young people. Even our pastor is a generation behind me. It's ok though.

I also went to Life Church yesterday. I love the option of going to church on Saturday evening. Bobby just got home from the Tulsa State Fair and I love hanging out with him on Sunday mornings. With a Saturday service I am able to worship God in a corporate setting and have a great family time on the weekends. Who knows, maybe Bobby will want to go to church on Saturdays someday too.

Lunch @ El Reno High School

 Every day I eat lunch in the cafeteria.  I always think, "What great kids we have here!"  In all of this time, I haven't had any incident with any of the kids! I should knock on wood I guess.