Who Do You Do Life With

I'm felling rather down today. I finished a Bible study on RightNow Media today about living life together. It was a great study of how God wants us to be close with people. I realized I am not close with anyone but Mishelle, my sister, and Kim. I don't do life with anyone. Not even Bobby. He is gone all the time doing his thing and I'm doing mine. Which consists of going home from work and watching tv. By myself. I'm not wanting sympathy, I know it is my fault. When you do life with people you have to be there in good and the bad. I don't think I am mentally stable enough to be there for someone when their life got messy and sad. I'm really not a good friend. I always want close friends to entertain me but don't want the complications that come with deep friendships. I don't know the answer to make me feel better. I just suck at life.